Monday, July 16, 2012

Here Comes the Bride.....

It's another wedding season and everyone in my world is getting engaged or about to get hitched. What about me you might ask? NADA. Am I sad,jealous, or lonely? It depends on my day's thought process. Somedays I'm happy and hopeful and then there's those other dreadful days where I hear this voice telling me, "It's never gonna happen" and the infamous one, "There are no good men left in this world." I panic for a few seconds and then God snaps me out it and tells me , "I know the desires of your heart,remember and wait patiently." PATIENTLY!!!!!???? I've been waiting for almost 25 years. -_- You see, as a young girl I made a plan that by 25 I was to be married, have a stable career, and enjoy life with the man of my dreams. How dreamy of me. So the pressure due to my plan has caused many faults into the decisions I've made with my past relationships, and I reached a point of exhaustion.

So when my last relationship failed I told God, "Okay this sucks but I failed again because I didn't listen to you instead I listened to my flesh. I'm sorry it had to come to this but thank you for snapping me out of it. Thank you for still loving me. I love you so much Lord."

After that, I know that giving it to God completely  and waiting for the man that God has for me will not cause any regretful mistakes. I want to be pure and build a Godly foundation. I simply want to do it the right way. So i'll just have to trust and wait joyfully because I know I'm receiving a gift. :)

THIS IS ESSENTIAL!!!
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your understanding.Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take" Proverbs 3:5-6


But my heart desires more than just being a wife. I know God's destiny for me is an adventure filled with great moments that will surely fufill my purpose in this life. I always tell God that I want more then just working at Nordstrom, becoming a wife,and doing my regular routine. And so my perspective in my life changes because I give it to him. This is a huge struggle for me because I feel incomplete if I don't have the ONE by my side. But God tells me, "He won't ever complete you, I will." I constantly have to remind myself but it's working. :) Believing and standing firm on Faith,Love,and Hope drives me to a potential that I would have never thought I could reach.It seems like yesterday I was saying, "Ya I know God wants me to become an actress and create projects to bring a light into audiences hearts." And now I'm part of an awesome theatre ministry and working myself through this acting thing. God is amazing. If we follow him through Christ we become his children and he prizes us in the most loving manner. To him, we're all extremely special and he is the main supporter for our dreams. I'm holding on to this and believing strongly! So no matter what people and my mind tell me, I know that because I'm single I'm not a failure.

So I hope this brings a certain comfort to all the singles out there. I pray that lonliness doesn't take advantage of your heart but instead you take this time to realize your greatness, and how you can make a difference!

Love,
Tanya Sanchez

P.S. For your beauty sleep : "You are altogether beautiful, my darling, beautiful in every way." Song of Solomon 4:7

Sunday, June 17, 2012

"Because You're Worth It"

Lorea'l chose the perfect tag line for their ad campaigns,making women believe that they have a necessity to buy their products in order for them to reach beauty,acceptance, and of course worthiness. Nice work Lorea'l, seriously. -_- But this got me thinking about this sad truth; many women including myself don't acknowledge their worthiness, and so we go and search for it in many forms. 

Ever since I can remember, I've always tried to win my worthiness. My mentality as a child through my adult life was that If I can be perfect in every aspect of my life, then I have worth as a woman, that I Tanya am worth it. I do this through my physical beauty, my work, friendships, and my chosen personality to society. This was aiding my mind yet I was lying to myself of how I truly felt inside. I feel devoid, impure, I thought my personality sucked, and then the one that hurts the most is unworthy of a man to love me.

Q:Why do I feel this??!!!
A:Well my childhood sucked, most of the time. Typical story of her Dad leaving with another women. I'm sure you get the picture.


There's a reason why I started this blog and then I didn't continue until now. It's not that I forgot it's just life got in the way, I made a huge mistake which I'm dealing with the consequences now, and I'm battling this foe that is ugly,manipulating, and evil. I've been in a constant mind game with him. He is conspicious with his conniving plans to push me down into a world that I don't belong to. His spells are strong and when I've fallen into them, I feel like a failure.  He won. But when I've failed I don't fall into a pit and lose, my superhero comes to the rescue.

God with his everlasting love for us and for me. My relationship with God is increasinly growing as I fight these battles with him by my side. I know God doesn't want to see my cry but because of free will I do. So I go through this cycle of cry,repent,fail. It's exhausting for my mind and spirit and I didn't comprehend why my cycle didn't stop. At one point, I thought that my life will always be like this. But that's not what God wants. I was so oblivious but God wiped my eyes and he simply said, "I love you for you." God doesn't love me for my efforts or because I accepted Jesus as my savior, he loved me way before that. He loved me in my mother's womb and longed for me ever since. God is a romancer, a hero, a protector, a father.

It is a simple but potent truth that carries the power to break chains, lies, and my mentality that I'm unworthy. I've been reading this book on and off  titled "Sacred Romance" by John Eldrige and Brent Curtis, and today it hit my hard as if Cupid shot me with his arrow of love. I would quote parts of this book but I rather you read it and find it on your own. :P But what I can explain is that God's love is for everyone and I'm learning that his love fills me up with a peace and joy that nothing in this world can replace it with.

So I'm sharing this with you because I hope that if you feel a sense of unworthiness, you don't have to.Once we embrace God's true love for us then nothing can hold us back. I pray that God's loving heart heals your wounds and refreshes you with a brighter sense of how special you are to him.

"We love Him because He first loved us" 1John 4:19

Love,
Tanya Sanchez

P.S. For your beauty sleep: "I love the Lord, because He has heard My voice and my supplications." Psalm 116:1
Do yourself a favor and talk to God before you sleep, he truly wants to hear us and he always answers.

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

#1: Ummm am I CRAZY or is it just my PMS talking??

Have you ever felt like the whole world thinks your an emotional mess with countless stories filled with juicy drama and unresolved endings?? Well, I'm not afraid to admit that yes, -_- I can be that crazy girl. A couple of days ago while I was at work, I was just standing there when this hit my head, " People and specifically men think I'm crazy, yeah I PMS like crazy, but I don't want to be that crazy!!!" I realized that the outcome of my craziness is due to my insecurities and forgetting who I am in Christ.

I've been letting my imperfections define who I am and enabling people to only see me as this unstable "wrath of a girl" who seriously needs help.

Definition of Crazy according to the American Heritage Dictonary: Affected with madness,insane. d. Foolish or impractical, senseless.

My thought: "Oh HELL NO!!! thats not me and I'm tired of being this way!!!"

The truth is, I know the antidote and when I asked God what is it he simply said , "KNOW WHO YOU ARE." It's so simple yet so powerful and mind blowing to me. So I began to plan a strategy so that God can beat the crazy out of me. Unfortunetly, life and the decisions I made stopped my plan and I went back being crazy Tanya, I failed. The enemy and his schemes are so annoying but God is much bigger and he truly is my hero. He took me to Psalm 39.

"Lord, remind me how brief my time on earth will be. Remind me that my days are numbered- how fleeting life is. You have made my life no longer than the width of my hand. My entire lifetime is just a moment to you; at best, each of us is but a breath" Psalm 39:4-5

I love David for his poetic and dramatic impact of words that made me realize that I just gotta keep on pushing and work towards my true identity. His grace and forgiveness I truly treasure because God is simply so wonderful and beautiful, and he still chases us after all our crazy mishaps. It makes me want to be obedient and I fall in love with him more everytime.
So im back and feeling confident than ever!!!

Whats my plan: Everyday I tell myself and proclaim OUT LOUD who I am in Christ!! I exercise my brain by replacing every bad thought about myself with a faith thought. And prayer and devotion are essential. Gals, if you can spend and hour doing your makeup and hair or reading your favorite magazine, I'm pretty sure you can do this! I'm trying so lets try together!
Here's my top pick that I'm learning to memorize; 1Peter 2:9-10

9"But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are ROYAL PRIESTS, a holy nation, GOD's very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of darkness into his wonderful light."

IT GETS BETTER!!

10" Once you had not identity as a people; now you are God's people. Once you received not mercy; now you have received God's mercy"

For your Beauty Sleep: "If you prize wisdom, she will make you great.Embrace her, and she will honor you. She will place a lovely wreath on your head; she will present you with a beautiful crown." Proverbs 4:8-9

This is so much better than any makeup, clothes, or shoes you can ever buy!!

The Lord is good :)

Love,
Tanya Sanchez

What is Fearless Beauty?

Hello my beautiful gals and that handsome boy that for some reason decided to read this! hehe :)
So what is Fearless Beauty?? Quite honestly, I'm in the process of discovering what that means but what I do know is that I don't want to share my journey alone. I've been contemplating for a year now If I should create this blog, but today I realized that my imperfections are the perfect tools for my ministry. :)
I know I'm not the only woman who struggles with brokenness, insecurities, and that deep longing to be loved, and so I want to share my thoughts and the revelations that the Lord has placed in my heart. I know that God wants me to share this with you because being a woman in this crazy world is hard, but he doesn't want us to give up and feel hopeless. My goal is to share and enlighten you through my personal experiences and by using the word of God to bring healing, restoration, and realizing what true love is.
Love,
Tanya Sanchez
"For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline." 2 Timothy 1:7